Musings of The Melting Girl

melting_girl @ 2009-02-18T15:29:00

2009-02-18T23:30:55Z

floating in the wonderfulness of it all.

reflections on 2008

2008-12-31T23:42:01Z

Yup it is time for that rare LJ post from me. I have to say that 2008 was a pretty good year. Like all years there were ups and downs but I am starting 2009 in a really great place. So here is a little recap and I'm sure I am leaving stuff out.

1.2008 started off with a great night at Death Guild. Dancing and drinking with my loved ones was awesome. And the next day my hang over was cured with bacon and friends at Marisa & Luke's house.

2. I gave myself a birthday party in February which was catered with amazing food from my friend Rebecca. So many friends came over to my house, the house I fall in love with more and more each day.

3. Another highlight of February was decided over the dinner table at Heather and Ted's house - that after a 7 year absence I would return to Burning Man. It was Thunderdome's 10th year on the playa and I was going to be there.

4. A big chunk of the next few months was prep and planning for Burning Man. I had to buy everything and being the project manager I am I had to over plan and over pack!

5. The spring also brought me 2 new friendships that were unexpected. These 2 have since become part of my inner circle and I am so glad to have them in my life. I have also grown closer with my parents and my brother which has been a great stabilizing force in my life.

6. 4th of July was my second annual BBQ for the holiday. This year included drunk croquet which was a blast! (yes it will return in 2009)

7. After what seemed like forever August arrived. I showed off my packing skills and filled my dad's cargo van with 4 people's stuff and Marisa, Luke, Shannon and I left for 2 week on the playa. It was an amazing 2 weeks. I meet new people, became closer with some I had known for years and learned how to drink everyday and not get hung over (thank you Sam). After almost 2 weeks of fun my girls and I walked out to a burn barrel where after a few words and some singing from Marisa, my wedding dress was torn off me and tossed into the fire. It was an amazing moment and the symbolism I needed to move forward.

8. I came back from Burning Man and after 4 showers and a steak dinner I was ready to face the rest of the year. I had to end a relationship that meant to much to me but I knew it was time to let go. It was a painful choice and I hurt someone I truly loved. I am thankful we have been able to stay friends.

9. Another big change came when I decided after 13 years of hosting Thanksgiving I would skip this year. It was a hard choice because I didn't want to let down all my friends who had spent so many years eating turkey and all the fixings with me. But this year was about taking care of me and the past 2 years had been such a drain on me to host I knew I needed to take a break. Because my friends rock everyone understood. So with a ton of stuffing I arrived at Heather and Ted's house to spend a stress free holiday with good friends.

10. November 6th was another big change - I was laid off from a job I loved. It wasn't personal, it is just what happens in business. I knew it was coming so I had been preparing for it. I have been able to take 2 months off which has been really good for me. I have learned to be comfortable and happy spending much of my time alone. I no longer have panic attacks after being alone for more than a few hours. It is an amazing feeling.

11. And finally I added a new member to my family. An adorable little black kitten named Ophelia. She has brought a ton of joy to me and Satine.

12. I forgot 2 things; Over Memorial Day weekend I went to the Hovel and saw what happens when you explode a 10 gallon propane take on a big fire - awesome!. I also went on my first fishing trip - thanks DTK!

As the year ends I wonder what 2009 will bring. It looks like I will be working at Apple for part of the year and then I will be off to Burning Man again in August. That is all I have planned other than DJing which will continue to be the thing that keeps me sane.

I hope everyone has a happy and fun New Years!

Tired & Relived

2008-08-08T05:04:14Z

I just got home after spending the day with phreddiva to be sure all was ok with her boy. And the good news is he is home and feeling much better. Wooohooooo!

Now he must rest so our vacation may start as planned on August 20th!

Luke is doing fine and Marisa is sleeping

2008-08-07T18:21:35Z

I went to the hospital this morning and found Marisa. Luke is doing fine. I brought Marisa home so she could get some sleep. Now I am using her computer, watching her tv and playing with her cat.

melting_girl @ 2008-07-05T11:34:00

2008-07-05T18:38:38Z

Spent a wonderful day with my awesome friends! Who knew crouqet could be so much fun! Thanks to Marisa, Ben and a snoring Luke for hanging out with me so I wouldn't feel all sad after everyone else had gone home. My boy is in Texas and I miss him very much!

Photos from the Blue Blood DG shoot

2008-06-07T00:15:36Z

http://www.blueblood.net/gallery/death-guild-01/

Help support my summer vacation

2008-06-06T00:24:00Z

Hi-

So as most of you know I am going to spend my summer vacation this year in the Nevada desert. For 13 days I will be attending Burning Man and participating in one of the largest and oldest theme camps, Death Guild Thunderdome.

As much fun as we have every year with Thunderdome, it costs a lot of money to bring it to Burning Man. In addition to sweat labor, there are all kinds of costs, including fuel, transportation, more fuel and all kinds of other things. So once a year we have a huge fund-raiser to earn money for our camp. This Saturday we bring the dome to the city of San Francisco. It is the one time of year you can see the dome and some of our talented friends and family perform and recreate what we do every year at Burning Man.

Even if you can't attend the fund-raiser this Saturday night you can still buy an advance ticket. The $15 we are charging will help with all of our costs which have gone up significantly this year since two of our top three expenses involves fuel.

Please visit http://www.deathguildthunderdome.com/
for more info and to donate to our camp.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this!

-mollie

It does get better with time

2008-05-20T03:14:08Z

Today would have been my 6 year wedding anniversary. Last year I ran away to my parents house to be taken care of, taken shopping and for the first time in my life I got drunk in front of my parents.

But a year later it is different. Today was like any other Monday. I went to work, I laughed, I solved problems, I got stuff done. Tonight I will be DJing at Death Guild, something I love to do.

My path of recovery is ongoing but this is a huge milestone and I am quite proud of myself!

Substance 1 Year Anniversary Saturday Night

2007-01-19T17:57:20Z

SUBSTANCE
The Bay Areas all night 80's party every 3rd Saturday!

ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION!

Special Live Performance by
SMASH-UP DERBY!
Mashing the 80's Classics with modern tracks
Voted Best of the Bay by the Guardian!
http://www.smashupderby.com/

What Anniversary Party would be complete without ALL the DJ's that
played
in 2006?

The Melting Girl (Death Guild)
Damon (1894, Gossip, Bondage a Go Go)
Donimo (Shadowplay)
Dangerous Dan (1984, Gossip)
Skip (New Wave City, Decade)
Tomas Diablo (Strangelove, Rock this Town)

(Shon will be in AZ otherwise he'd be spinning too!)

SPECIAL GIFT TO YOU:
Cover charge is only $1 for the first 50 people!

Birthday Cake at Midnight!

Large back patio, pinball, video games, Pool Table, two bars, outdoor
heating, waterfalls, etc. Best club to hang out at all night and all
day. If you've been to The Endup, you know what I'm talking about. If
you haven't, you are missing out on one of the most beloved venues in
San Francisco since 1973.

Doors open at 10pm and we go until 6am!
Get there early as we will reach maximum capacity for this event.
21+ With Valid ID
$10 before 2am

The Endup
401 6th Street @ Harrison
San Francisco
www.theendup.com

melting_girl @ 2007-01-14T13:00:00

2007-01-14T21:08:24Z

Woohooo to Ed for DJing with me last night at Gossip. We busted out the old school goth/industrial jams. I danced with a cute boy :-). Hung out with so many good friends and had a wonderful night.

next month at Gossip I will be celebrating my birthday - more details soon.

melting_girl @ 2007-01-02T18:39:00

2007-01-03T01:39:39Z

Started off the new year with some really great friends. Had a blast playing 80's trivial pursuit, drinking some fine drinks and eating yummy food. New Years day was mellow but I still can't shake the feeling that the rug got pulled out from under me. I know it has only been 3 months but I'm sick of feeling this way.

Meet up with David and Jen for yummy thai food before Death Guild. Played music at DG and then went home to sleep. Back at work today.

Nothing too exciting but it's all I've got for now.

Happy Day

2006-12-22T20:06:06Z

I just checked by bank account balance and finally after waiting over a month the County of Alameda has cashed my check to file for divorce. Of course this is just the beginning of the process which takes about 6 months. There is stil much paperwork to do, forms to sign, etc. but hopefully I will get something from the court soon saying that I have filed for divorce. Then I can go down to social security and get my name back. Woohooo!

melting_girl @ 2006-12-22T12:40:00

2006-12-22T19:40:41Z

I'm really bord at work today.

Your Depression Level: 68%

You seem to have moderate depression.
Your symptoms are bad enough that they're effecting your everyday life.
You would benefit greatly from professional help.

Are You Depressed?

need help with some songs

2006-12-06T23:31:21Z

So today has been a day of listening to Battery's Aftermath album over and over. I need more songs like this. More songs to make me feel angry and not sad about my situation. I know I have lots of songs but I'm just not thinking very clearly right now.

If you have any suggestions comment here. Hate, people tell me is part of the healing process.

The day after

2006-11-01T21:36:18Z

Ouch!!!!!!!! Massive hangover!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Need sleep.
It has been said before and it will be said again...
Damn those evil drinks at the DNA!

I'm going to be out a lot this week

2006-09-11T03:44:43Z

So this week I will be out DJing almost every night.

Monday - Death GUild

Tuesday - Snog @ the DNA Lounge

Wednesday - night off

Thursday - Nitzer Ebb with my girls Jamie & Georgia. Then DJing at CSI DNA

Friday - Meat/Guild - I'll be in the lounge playing '80's music with Dangerous Dan

Saturday - Substance at the End-up

I gotta figure out all my outfits for these nights. Time to go digging in my closet!

My Birthday party

2006-02-09T03:36:31Z

Hi-

last year my birthday sucked - I had the flu and didn't get to have a party so this year I want to have lots of fun!

I will be celebrating my birthday this Saturday at New Wave City at the DNA Lounge. If you RSVP I can put you on a list where you only have to pay a $7 cover (the usual is $12). I will also have lots of drink tickets.

I hope you can come out!

-m

Diamond's are a girls best friend

2005-08-30T18:49:02Z

Thank you to all that gave me costume ideas. Though Jamie's idea was tempting (not really), I have decided to be Satine from the Moulin Rouge. I just signed the contract to have the black diamonds costume made for me! This is the one Nicole Kidman wears during her first performance of "Diamonds Are A Girls Best Friend".

OK back to work now...

Halloween Costume Ideas - HELP

2005-08-26T23:28:57Z

HELP! I need to come up with 2 Halloween costumes. I'm terrible at coming up with ideas so I thought maybe someone out there would have a good idea I could work with. One thing to keep in mind is that I will be working at both events I need costumes for so no elaborate masks (need to be able to see my CDs and the DJ equipment).

Thank you in advance for your ideas

No Combichrist for me

2005-07-20T05:12:43Z

Stupid cramps! Every month I go through this pain. And it always gets in the way of something. Tonight I was planing on going to the Combichrist show at DNA with a stop in to Drunk Monkey at Cat's. But instead I'm stomping around the house saying "OUCH OUCH" and taking lots of pain meds which make driving a bit difficult. So instead of friends and stompy fun I will be in pain. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

oh my god I'm posting!

2005-06-01T20:55:02Z

Hi-
I'm not sure why I've decided to write today.

Maybe it is because I had such a blast DJing 7 out of 10 nights in the past couple of weeks. I saw so many friends, meet a lot of regulars who I had not really talked to before and danced my ass off.

Maybe it is because I'm going to LA this weekend for my brothers high school graduation. LA is both wonderful and horrible for me so I'm always exceited and nervous before going there. I'm going to a club Saturday night where I'm suppose to see an old friend of mine. I'm really looking forward to that.

Or maybe it is because I really don't want to work today and I'm doing everything I can to avoid my job.

The Best Movie in the World

2004-02-05T21:06:44Z

Your Moulin Rouge Status: by pinkrobelover
Your Name:
Your deepest secret:	You stole Christian's top hat
The Bohemian Ideal You hold true to most is:	Beauty
Your Job at the Moulin Rouge:	Exotic Dancer
What the customers think:	You should charge more for your services
Favorite Quote:	"Outside it may be raining, but in here it's entertaining!"

Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

This is Halloween, This is Halloween

2003-11-01T00:03:04Z

I came to work dressed up like a witch today. Everyone thinks I look great which helps me feel better about the major f*** up that happened which is partially my fault. I need a drink tonight!

Speaking of tonight...I will be DJing at Cat's for "Won't Die" from 11-12:30. Then Georgia and I will head over to John's house. I want this Halloween to be good because last year sucked! Tomorrow night I will be at DNA for "Castle Spectacular" in a fab costume provided to me by the wonderful Miss G.

I hope I see some of you this weekend!

I'm back

2003-10-15T21:45:08Z

Hi-
I'm back from Berlin! Germany was much fun. I did tons of shopping. Got new New Rocks (they make me very tall), lots of CD's (which will be played at DG over the next few weeks) and new cloths. But I'm glad to be home. I missed my friends.

I tired so hard to make it out to DG monday night but the pillow won the battle and I missed VNV Nation. I'm waiting for Ed to call me back and give me the scoop. Now I'm trying to get all caught up on TV. Vaugn's new wife on Alias is a bitch! West Wing is so good. and the Lyon's Den is OK but I wish Rob Lowe was still on West Wing.

In other news I will be on LIVE 105 Friday night from 10-12 as a goth expert. I don't know how much I will be talking or how many songs I will get to pick but it will be 2 hours of goth music so if your not out parting tune in.

I'm on vacation!!!!!!!!!!!!

2003-10-03T21:39:33Z

So I'm on my way to Germany, sitting in the Virgin Upperclass lounge listing to Ascii Disko. I feel like a rock star. And with my hair I guess I look like one too. Everyone else in here looks like boring business types.

I'm going to try to update this every couple of days. I forgot everyone's addresses so if you want a postcard you'll have to e-mail me your snail address.

OK back to sipping cocktails.